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Monday, June 22, 2009

realise something important.....

after i post my latest blog i just killing the time by reading my friend's blog..
lots of thought... i learn something by reading their blog
as far as im concern about my self, i hardly "dengar cakap"...
i dont know why..i cant get rid that thing from me..
i hate when people get nag on me..but later on..i do think back what they are saying...
im happy for them..for their success n desire course...
then i start thinking about my self...
i ever said that "org dah study tp result teruk"
always say it to my parent...
Ayah will said..sometime "kita study bukan dari diri kita jer....dr org sekeliling kita.."
i dont understand what hes trying to explain..but just nodded..
he clarify about what he said before..
" mungkin kita mmg betol2 study, tp xmasuk, benda tu semua berkait rapat dengan
rohani kita, mungkin kita xlaksanakan perintah-NYA..dan die nak kita sedar benda tu semua..
kerana DIA sygkan kita DIA turunkan musibah"
ok..but i said to my father.."nana insyaAllah x tinggal solat"
that was the first thing my parent "terapkan" to their children...
ilmu agama...
he added"bkn tu jer nana, byk lagi benda berkaitan dengan ilmu ni yang perlu kita take note..
contohnya tanpa keberkatan org tua..belajar la macammana pon..anak tu xkan berjaya"
ayah ever said "ayah ni nak kata berjaya sgt xlah..tp ayah hidup senang atas muka bumi ni semua pasal org tua..apa2pon..org tua ayah utamakn"
i really adore him..eventhough he is bz with his life being a lecturer, the leader of our family, yet he still can manage his time with he's study..few months ago..ayah GOT 4 flet taking his master at UNISEL..n being the best student....ayah said"ayah blaja sikit jer..tp pengalaman dalam hidup, xlokek ilmu,cintakan ilmu,jangan sombong...itu antara faktor ilmu susah masuk..
jgn perasan kita cantik,pandai, kaya dari org lain....''..
if not because of ayah..i already stop my study...
ayah added, hubungan dengan manusia juga kena jaga nana, jgn bermusuh2..setiap kali kita bermusuh kita akan tambah satu titik hitam dlm diri kita..bila dr hari ke hari byk titik hitam..ilmu susah nak masuk"i'll remember that ayah!....although my father are not goin to read this post..n i dont want him to read it too.(because nanti post2 lain semua dia tau..camna la ni?? aduii)...i still standing here because of U...insyaAllah..nana akan perbaiki diri from day to day to become a better person in future....i know..im easy to be influence by surrounding..n i thought that was a reason im not further my study at KL..
maybe i will become someone bad if i live in KL...thus that why..I "tercampak" kat sini..
1 quote from my friends blog that make me think twice..
BILA ORG DAH TERLEBIH SOSIAL, INTELEK DIA LEMAH..
i guess its true..i do love sosial life, but im afraid intelek tu lemah...
one more thing, eventhough im not in medical student, is it wrong for me to study those thing..
kerana semua tu ilmu ALLAH..xsemestinya u study benda tu..u xleh study benda lain...
i do hope from this second..i can manage my time..not just stuck infront of lappy..doin nonsense stuff..just watching korean drama,fb n fs....
i have to start from now if i really want to success..
YA ALLAH..bantulah hambamu ini..kuatkanlah semangatnya...tajamkanlah akal fikirannya...jangan engkau jadikan dia manusia x berguna pada agama dan bangsa.....
and there is another quote that i love to read is

"IF YOU CHANGE THE WAY YOU LOOK AT THINGS,
THE THINGS YOU LOOK AT CHANGE"

as you guys all know,lately i was soo depress with the course that i get,
feels damn down on that day..but as the time goes by...aq realise
maybe it is the best for me....

few later back,before im being mrsm student....i need to meet the "pegawai pelajaran" correct ka that term..i dont know who was him..but i need to "minta tandatangan" dier for truskan study d mrsm...when he check my certificate..at the back of the file ..he find something..(aiyaa..make me malu that time)...it was a picture of FIFI..one of my favourite host...
he asked..y this picture here?..with the shame face(haha..) i told i like to be like her in future..
he reply" xboleh..kan nak masuk mrsm, mesti jadi doktor, masuk sekolah org pandai2.."
hmmm..that all i replied him..

mrsm...kenal lots of bakal dr there..maybe that coz me to"MINAT TETIBE NAK JD DR"..but my minat dlm broadcast never change..just dont know..it can be reality or not...
tp nak buat camna..xda rezeki nak jd dr...kawen ngan dr bleh kot..(hahha just joking)...
but hopefully after so many failure in my life..i can stand up back n become SOMEBODY..
or should i call become SUPERWOMAN..(hahha..laughing...teringt something)hahhahaah

1 comment:

khairieah said...

best lah post ko yg ni nana..very moving.. hehe :)

klu nak jadi mcm fifi tu mungkin sbb pandai cakap depan org ramai, konfiden kan..

tak semestinya blajar sains, kena jadi doktor.. asalkan sains pun dah kira hebat la tu..sbb sains kan banyak kaitan dgn quran..

nana, good luck in everything k!